.I slept at 11.30.Woke Up at 2.22.Its Bothering Me.

Uh, Yesterday i slep at around 11.30.
Too erly i guess.
but i was feeling lyke nk tdo ja.
plan nk study terbatal at 11.
i off9 at 11.baring2.thenn pooooftttt!
tdooooo.(:

I have loved, and I have lost
I have turned, and I have tossed
I have listened, and I have watched
I gave into this for long enough
I have lost, and I have loved
Sleep has stolen far too much
not just yet
Sleep is just a cousin of death

It's 11.30
Moonlight over me
Come and rescue me
From sleep

The airwaves
Are clean
Of memories
You can save
My dreams
And save me

12.00
I'm waiting
Waiting in my dream

Won't you save me from myself?
Won't you save me from myself?
It's your decision, what you say
Whether I go or stay
It's your decision, what I mean
Will you wake me from the dream?

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna lose my life
I want to see the sunrise
I want to see it all

But no
I'm stuck here in a dream
Waiting for the bell to ring


12:22
I'm still waiting for you
Will you come
And bring me to the sun?
I'm still waiting for you

Will you come?

NO.U DIDN'T.U NEVA TRY TO SAVE ME.

Ahhh.Nightmaree.
Wake up at 2.22.
First, when i awake,

i check my phonee.

there was 6txts msgs.
2 of the txts were from u.
Damn.I fill so badd.
leaving u..
i cried.because..
I MISS YOU SO BADDDDDDD TOO.

Then..i cut it off.i went to d toilet..washed my face.
i took biology f4's book.
then studyy.
at 3 O'clock,
i fill lyke so stickyyyy.
i went to d toilet again n have a bath.
so cold..so calm..
so erly aite?(:
ahah.

Then today..at 7.40, pergi jalan2.
mama teman.hanya kami berdua.(:

i drove!(:

jln2 dkt pantai jerjak..

pantai egate..
Yeah.Layan.Tenang melihat Laut dan ombaknya.
Sejuk pemikiran.

Sharp at 8.40,
sampai rumaa.
masuk blk..
baring lepak jap.
then on9.
hampir bkk buku,tetapi.
arh,not in the rite mood.
and here i ammm.
typingggg onnn.
haha!:D

N haaa
I ammmm.
yeah,starvinggg.
LAPAR.
Dint get my breakfast yetttt.
But i did lah.
caitt.
21 biji kismis.:D
lol.
then air suam.
but still.
it was not considered as breakfast aite?:D
gahah.

btw readers, GOOD MORNINGGG.Heee.

.God, Please Give Me The Strength.

hmm.today is my first day of trying smthn new since we've never been apart. somthing that i fill like i cudnt do. Wondeful.I'm soory i have to go.juz 4 awhile..i nid some space..to breath..

I PROMISE, I'll BE BACK.

Dont u worry.. n hey..i got ur called. its almost 30 misscalls from u.n i also get ur text messages. but i force myself not to reply. but i did cried when u called.i was holding my phone. i cant help myself for picking it up.i have to be strong. Do u noe how its hard to do this, to be at my place? but i BELIEVE

INI YANG TERBAIK UNTUK KITA BUAT SEKETIKA.

I will never leave you dear.as i will always be ur friend. lyke i said, i juz nid times to fight this heart-ache. saya rasa sangat sakit. sampai satu tahap, saya dah xdpt control diri saya.and I'm sick of pretending that i'm happy and okay while i'm not
. saya pasti, apabila saya kembali, saya akan tenang. dan saat itu...

LETS OPEN A NEW BOOK.
KITA AKAN BERKENALAN SEMULA.(;

Oh dear,

I can't say I don't miss you
Because thats something that I do
Then pain I feel deep inside
I can't just store away and hide

I promised I would never leave
That I would always love you
And of course we would both know I was lying if I said I didn't...
Know I still love you...I really do
But I really have to go

I know you don't try to hurt me...
But, you see, you hurt me more than you could ever imagine
Don't hater yourself and please don't be sad
You deserve to smile and laugh
I'm only bringing you down...breaking everything we've ever had

You're still one of my best friends
And don't worry, you'll always have a hold on my heart
Once you love someone there's no turning back
There's no past tense to love and there will never be one
But really, I think we both need a fresh start

I'll beg you not to hate me...
But it's okay if you do
I would be mad if my best friend was leaving too
Hold onto our memories...and please don't forget me
Because one day, who knows, I might just come back to you

I'm still here if you need me
I'll always be here, promise
But i have to try and save myself
Something no one can do but me
Don't forget you help me more than you will ever see

I know I hurt you even though I don't try to
It's human nature really...
But even through all the hurt, we still love each other
I know I can make you laugh
And you sure can make me smile

Can I still be your best friend?
Will I still have a hold on your heart?
Though sometimes I wonder if you ever did love me at all...
I know that may be a silly thing to think
But I'm not going to sit here and let you play with me like a doll

Do you hate me?
I hope not...
I don't know if I could handle knowing you hate me
It's bad enough that I'm not going to talk to you...
Remember I love you...
And one day I promise to come back to you.

Love,

Yana

.Upside Down.Uhh, bouncing.

walking alone, on this path I cannot see..
breathing in, I let darkness cover me..
I can only walk, too tired to run sayang.

my heart beats faster, thinking of you..
what's a lonely soul to do?..
true love seems beyond us all..
stumble once, and for an eternity fall..

one step forward, then three steps back
where's reality? life's all an act.=.=''
not thinking, I take one more step
never considering the after-effect..

life isn't always how it may seem..
twists and turns- is it only a dream?I HOPE SO.
I'm torn away
endless night, no hint of day ..


Ouh dear..
I neva forced u to choose..
but u can't keep both, so one of us u must lose..
It feels as if you're being torn from my sides..
The pain of which is so unbearable I just want to hide..

why can't I simply stay?
Why in the world does it have to end this way?
I can't run away and forget about this mess
I can't get a rest, a break much less
One or the other?
Charming or kind?
The choice is far too painful to make, u cannot decide!
But u knows the answers to ur problems are hidden inside...

It's tearing me apart
Utterly destroying my heart
Making me miserable through and through
Please don't take me apart like this
I love you!

I know I have to make a stand
But if I do so, on one of us will there left be a brand?
My heart in my chest, rest to lay
The cruelty of impending choice tortures me day by day

Aren't we past this blatant immaturity?
Stop quarreling and get over this insecurity
My pain is invisible to you it seems
I'm silent about the situation
But inside I want to scream!

Please....oh, please don't do this to me...
Can't you see this ain't just about us three...?
Can't take it anymore...I'm hurting inside...
Forget about the jealousy....just forget about your pride!
I can't be strong....please help me be strong....
Because of this I'm torn....

Untill when?..u'r the greatest shot.

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There's nthn much to share out.sco life is just lyke normal.then..actly of coz ade stories.
tp rs mcm mls plak nk crite.lol. (;

.S.I.L.E.N.T. .S.C.R.E.A.M.

Have you ever felt that feeling whenever you see someone, you freeze and your heart starts to beat so fast and you have to hold on to something so you wouldn’t fall?

Sometimes when they talk to you, do you utter stupid words and end up embarrassing yourself?

It’s not that you want it, but just the presence of that person makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time. Would you be brave and admit your feelings?

What if it’s simply not meant to be, do you give up?

Or keep trying and end up with nothing?

Well, that’s love.

Its irony speaks, but you got to take risks to get answers.

When you meet someone and you gradually fall in love with that person, try to express your love to her because every moment you wasted would be equal to tons of regret in the end.

Don’t wait until it’s too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care. Because when they are gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry they won’t hear you anymore.

The love you can’t have lasts the longest, feels the strongest and hurts the most.

It’s so hard pretending to be friends with someone special when every time you look at that person it just hurts even more knowing that all you see is ultimately everything that you want but you can’t have.

Isn’t it stupid when you say,

“no, I don’t love that person anymore.”

But still, when the memories are refresh and that person become visible again in your life.
You’ll stare and say,
“Damn it! Why can’t I forget you?”

So each time I see you, I say to myself, “I moved on.”

Each time you smile at me, I say to myself, “yeah, were just friends!” But every time you look at me, I end up saying, “Shit! It’s so hard to pretend!”
It’s hard to love someone who is not serious enough. Time would give you chances to talk, chances to be together and chances to share.
See how it hurts?! You only have chances, just chances.

A heartbreak isn’t as loud as a bomb exploding.

Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling and the most painful thing is no one really hears it except you.

You can handle the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on.

But you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who failed and hurt you is still the person you’ll choose to love.

I cried so many times because of a love lost and a love I never really had. I suffered pain worse than dying. But feelings change and there’s one lesson that everybody should learn in time…move on.

You can’t finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It’s a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go.

We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. Learn to appreciate the rainbow after cursing the rain. It’s just like loving again after experiencing pain.

Loving someone can’t be proven with just the way you feel, the words you say or the things you give.

If you’ve ignored yourself and sacrificed your own happiness for the one you love, you know what love means.

.THANK YOU.

SHIT is all i can say.
BAD and HURT is all i can feel.
CRY is all i can do.

Ouch.GARBAGE of EMOTIONS.

i'm juz speechless.
i dont noe what else shud i say.
i dont noe u anymore.
u've changed.alot.
who r u?*sigh.

You changed

A friendship broken,

and torn apart,
why couldn't we just,
go back to the start.

Your thoughts have changed,
your priorities too,
no cares any more,
I didn't know what to do.

You left me alone,
and complained it was me,
that nothings your fault,
and you just can't see.

Now you want it back
you want to make things right
but your now left alone,
as I walk away and out of sight.

You threw us away,
your life you re-arranged,
no more time for us you had,
your the one who's changed.


I relly hate it,
That things can't stay the same.
I just want to stop
Playing this stupid lifelike game.

I cried for you, lyke an idiot,
And yeah, I freaked out.
Why'd you have to change so much?
It just makes me want to shout.

Who the hell are you?
Where's the guy I used to know?!
I miss him a lot, you're a jerk,
And I want him to come back, and you to go.

Who do you think you are, then, huh?
You don't have the right,
To go around in his body, pretending
I'd like to see your real face in the light.

You're a monster, you know that?
God knows why I shed those tears.
You know, right now, I want to beat the crap out of you?
Why'd you have to change so much, the past few days?

This is HELL man.