07 May 2010

.God, Please Give Me The Strength.




hmm.today is my first day of trying smthn new since we've never been apart. somthing that i fill like i cudnt do. Wondeful.I'm soory i have to go.juz 4 awhile..i nid some space..to breath..

I PROMISE, I'll BE BACK.

Dont u worry.. n hey..i got ur called. its almost 30 misscalls from u.n i also get ur text messages. but i force myself not to reply. but i did cried when u called.i was holding my phone. i cant help myself for picking it up.i have to be strong. Do u noe how its hard to do this, to be at my place? but i BELIEVE

INI YANG TERBAIK UNTUK KITA BUAT SEKETIKA.

I will never leave you dear.as i will always be ur friend. lyke i said, i juz nid times to fight this heart-ache. saya rasa sangat sakit. sampai satu tahap, saya dah xdpt control diri saya.and I'm sick of pretending that i'm happy and okay while i'm not
. saya pasti, apabila saya kembali, saya akan tenang. dan saat itu...

LETS OPEN A NEW BOOK.
KITA AKAN BERKENALAN SEMULA.(;

Oh dear,

I can't say I don't miss you
Because thats something that I do
Then pain I feel deep inside
I can't just store away and hide

I promised I would never leave
That I would always love you
And of course we would both know I was lying if I said I didn't...
Know I still love you...I really do
But I really have to go

I know you don't try to hurt me...
But, you see, you hurt me more than you could ever imagine
Don't hater yourself and please don't be sad
You deserve to smile and laugh
I'm only bringing you down...breaking everything we've ever had

You're still one of my best friends
And don't worry, you'll always have a hold on my heart
Once you love someone there's no turning back
There's no past tense to love and there will never be one
But really, I think we both need a fresh start

I'll beg you not to hate me...
But it's okay if you do
I would be mad if my best friend was leaving too
Hold onto our memories...and please don't forget me
Because one day, who knows, I might just come back to you

I'm still here if you need me
I'll always be here, promise
But i have to try and save myself
Something no one can do but me
Don't forget you help me more than you will ever see

I know I hurt you even though I don't try to
It's human nature really...
But even through all the hurt, we still love each other
I know I can make you laugh
And you sure can make me smile

Can I still be your best friend?
Will I still have a hold on your heart?
Though sometimes I wonder if you ever did love me at all...
I know that may be a silly thing to think
But I'm not going to sit here and let you play with me like a doll

Do you hate me?
I hope not...
I don't know if I could handle knowing you hate me
It's bad enough that I'm not going to talk to you...
Remember I love you...
And one day I promise to come back to you.

Love,
Yana

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